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Hey, sorry you are feeling so blue, here is a thought for you, the energy you project out into the world is the energy you recieve back, so in other words, you must force yourself to get out and try new things, catch up with friends, be grateful for what you have now, picture what you would like in the future and the positive action will come back to you like a mirrored effect.
I learned the hard way by saying no all of the time when friends called to do something....... eventually they just stopped calling and I was more depressed than ever. my husband works away a lot and I was becoming a recluse, but now......
Even if I really don't feel like doing something or talking to someone, I will force myself now and you know what, I have a really good time and friends I haven't talked to in eons are suddenly calling me out of the blue.
I truley believe if you send out enough positive energy you will be rewarded three fold
I hope this makes you feel better, and know that there is always someone here to talk to.
Take care
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I am sorry you are feeling this way and I can relate to it. I find myself sleeping more, and making less plans than before. It's sort of like I don't know what I am living for anymore. My dream has always been to have a family and be a mommy. In the last 3 years I keep getting signs of it not happening for me. I pull myself out, but then I get back down again. It feels like an endless battle.
This week, has been a good week for me. I have been more positive and refuse to loose hope. You must find little treasures in your life to help you move on. People, things, feelings, reasons to love life and be appreciative. Although we are having a tough time with this baby business, but we should remember the little details of life that make us happy. Good friends, beautiful music, sunset, a touch and much more. Read some happy endings and be hopful. I know you will be ok, and your time will come soon, so smile:)

I try to just really ignore it for the most part. I do make myself go out and do things. I have been making myself go and work out in hopes that it will raise my self esteem and whatnot. I didn't really realize that this was really going on. I don't know. It's just getting worse now. I'm getting to where instead of going to class I just lay in the bed and sleep which I really don't need to do. I know I have to but some days are just hard. That's one reason I am just going to quit charting and everything. i will just let what happens happen. I think taking this stressor out of my life. My dh is trying to get a new job to where I don't have to work and that will make school a lot easier for me. I just feel stretched so thin right now. I have problems with anxiety too and that really doesn't help. My grandmother was on anxiety pills for years and she still has problems with it. I am going to go talk to my doctor about it just because of my family's history. I need to get myself healthy before I have a baby so I think I am going to work on that. Maybe me not focusing all my energy into this will hlep out some. Maybe it will just happen that way. Thanks for the comments girls.

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So sorry your going through a rough time. Hope you feel better soon. HUGS HUGS HUGS

I'm sorry you're going through this. I don't think I've ever had depression, but I've definitely been in a rut before. It's where I feel like I'm spending so much time trying to build a life that I'm missing out on life. School made it worse because I'd feel guilty doing anything that wasn't directly related to doing well in school.

Here's an idea that works for me. Think of all the things you love and are thankful about in your life. Then think about a short term goal that can enhance your life, but doesn't take much time. For example, if you go to church every Sunday, join a group at church or volunteer to be a Sunday school teacher. If you like to walk or run at the gym, sign up for a race or charity event and challenge yourself to get a certain time. The trick is to find something that is feasible given your time constraints but makes you feel like you aren't missing out on life. I find that losing weight isn't a good goal for this. But challenging yourself to reach a fitness goal that is within reach is much more rewarding and often leads to weight loss.

The problem with putting so much emotional energy into ttc is that much of it is out of your control. Try focusing on something small that is in your control.

Of course, I recently made myself feel better by going on a bit of a shopping spree. The reason that worked is because it reminded me that I had the financial freedom to do it and I really needed new clothes. I wouldn't recommend it unless you can do it without going into debt (which adds stress later) and if you feel like your clothes do not project who you are.

Best of luck and tons and tons of baby dust!

Hey MG!! I know how you feel.. Just try to keep your head up Try and focus on one thing ( like working out ) it will keep your mind off of alot.. Remember you can private message me anytime.. I have gone through this a few times and it helps when you have people to talk to so I am here if you need to talk.. Just stay strong and keep your head up I will be thinking about you.. Keep me posted sweetie.. I hope you start feeling better