I'm new here.. however, not new to
bulimia. I've been sick now for about 7
years... and I am SOOOOOOOOO done with
it!!!
So, I'm a senior in college, and I have
two quarters left before I graduate. I
sit here in my bed, skipping class because
I no longer have the motivation to walk to
the bus and go to school. What's wrong
with me????
It's not just that... my work out routine
used to consist of going to the gym 4-5
days a week, which has took a turn for the
worse-- I now go *maybe* 2-3 times a week,
pretty much just to stare at the machines
and leave.
Oh.. and this one is HUGE. I'm dating the
guy of my dreams.. but I seem to be
pushing him away lately due to my
irritability level (it's out of freakin'
control!!). He knows about my e.d., and
clearly wants to help me. When we talk
about it I get upset and tell him to leave
me alone. I really do want to get
better.. and I feel so bad for the way
I've been treating him lately. He's the
best thing that has ever happened to me,
yet I keep pushing him away whenever we
are together! AHHH! I try to keep
motivated and think positively, but it's
so hard when all my nutrients have gone
down the drain (literally!).
Does anyone seem to lack motivation and
are as highly irritable as I am?
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Little Sadie
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 24 Feb 2007 Posts: 14 Location: georgia
Posted: 02-26-07 23:12pm
no.... not anymore than my normal lazy
self.
how have you been able to keep this up for
7 years?! My throat is tore up right now,
and I've only been deep for about a year.
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sunshine85
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 26 Feb 2007 Posts: 4
Posted: 02-27-07 13:32pm
Little Sadie
wrote:
no.... not anymore than my
normal lazy self.
how have you been able to keep this up for
7 years?! My throat is tore up right now,
and I've only been deep for about a
year.
I go through periods of throwing up every
day, to throwing up once a month. I don't
use my fingers to throw up, it just comes
up naturally-- i eat foods that i know
wont tear up my throat.
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sunshine85
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 26 Feb 2007 Posts: 4
Posted: 02-27-07 17:45pm
and I'm doing it again... this is not a
good trend. I'm so mad at myself for not
going to class today. I only have 3 weeks
left and I can't even manage to push
myself for 3 more weeks. I really don't
know what to do you guys!
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Little Sadie
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 24 Feb 2007 Posts: 14 Location: georgia
Posted: 02-27-07 18:09pm
sunshine85
wrote:
and I'm doing it again...
this is not a good trend. I'm so mad at
myself for not going to class today. I
only have 3 weeks left and I can't even
manage to push myself for 3 more weeks. I
really don't know what to do you
guys!
you're just sabatoging graduating. almost
everybody i know did this. Wanna know
why? b/c the real world sucks! Stay in
college as long as possible. that's my
advice.
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sunshine85
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 26 Feb 2007 Posts: 4
Posted: 02-27-07 19:10pm
Little Sadie
wrote:
sunshine85
wrote:
and I'm doing it again...
this is not a good trend. I'm so mad at
myself for not going to class today. I
only have 3 weeks left and I can't even
manage to push myself for 3 more weeks. I
really don't know what to do you
guys!
you're just sabatoging graduating. almost
everybody i know did this. Wanna know
why? b/c the real world sucks! Stay in
college as long as possible. that's my
advice.
You know.. it might sound crazy, but i'd
MUCH rather be out there in the real
world!!! I do really well when I'm back at
home with my family and boyfriend (not at
school), I don't b/p at all.
The skipping class thing is due to my
bulimia.. it's messing me up in more ways
than one. I just talked to my mom about
it (was really hoping I wouldn't have to
tell her I'm b/p again..) and she's
driving 2 hours from my hometown to come
and stay with me for a few days to help me
get back on track. I really hope this
helps. I don't know what I would do
without my family at this point. My
friends, well, aren't really friends.
Thanks for listening guys
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Little Sadie
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 24 Feb 2007 Posts: 14 Location: georgia
Posted: 02-28-07 00:14am
I'm glad you have a supportive family. i
couldn't tell my parents. they would just
tell me i'm whinning or begging for
attention. They have this tough love
thing going on. Maybe that's what you
need more of.... and I need more support.
there should be a happy medium somewhere,
right?
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