Joined: 17 Feb 2007 Posts: 172 Location: west virginia, united states
"a Life For a Life" Posted: 02-28-07 10:10am
my father passed away on thursday, feb.
22nd. i found out i was pregnant sunday,
feb. 18th. he was never informed about his
future grand-baby. i'm so depressed right
now. i have no idea what to do or how to
feel. i'm angry w/ everyone. my father
& i had a rocky relationship these
past 10-yr's. he had a terrible drug habit
& recently brought back his alcoholic
one, too. he did this to himself. i
expected it to happen, but the news of his
passing was a complete shock. i can't help
but to think, "for every life god gives,
he takes one." this baby seems to be the
light in everyone's dark, but for some
reason it's not making me feel any better.
i'm angry with this baby, too. i feel like
an awful mother for saying that, but i'm
not excited about bringing a child into
this world. my boyfriend is so upset that
i feel that way b/c he's so in love with
our baby already. he can't wait to hold
'em & raise 'em. i don't feel
pregnant, at all. i feel nothing but
misery. i'm so miserable. i never answered
my father's phone calls b/c i "didn't feel
like dealing w/ him." i never got to tell
him how much he meant to me. i never got
to tell him that i forgive him & i
love him w/ all of my heart. everything
just hurts right now.
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Melissa_20
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Joined: 18 Jan 2006 Posts: 6806 Location: Florida
Posted: 02-28-07 10:16am
I'm so sorry for your loss! its absolutly
normal to feel like that but you have to
understand there was nothing that could be
done.you had your reasons for not talking
to them and they don't sound dumb to me.he
knows you cared about him now,don't beat
yourself up over it.maybe the whole baby
thing and then your father passing is
overwhelming you a bit? maybe when you
start to *feel* your child you will feel
dfferently about it. I'm not great with
words btu I hope things get better for
you.just take it one day at a time dear!!
I'm so sorry hun. What you're feeling is
completely normal. Please don't feel like
a bad mother, because you're not. Some
women don't bond with their babies til
after they're born, and even then it can
take a while. Don't feel like you
automatically have to love your baby
straight away, because you don't.. it
takes time.
Just take everything a day at a time.. it
will get easier hun.
<3
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Emma2
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Joined: 09 May 2006 Posts: 4406 Location: Montreal, Canada
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Posted: 02-28-07 10:32am
i am so sorry to hear this ..it must be
hard...im not sure if what you feel is
normal or not because i never went thtough
something of this nature but you will pull
through...and the sayin only applies to
someone dying when a baby is born...
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tigresacanela24
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Joined: 11 Nov 2005 Posts: 5261 Location: Treat your children well, eventually they'll choose your nursing home.
Posted: 02-28-07 10:44am
I'm sorry for your loss. I wish I had
some profound words of wisdom to make
everything better for you but I don't. No
one does. Just know that as time goes on,
you will feel better. Being angry and
feeling guilt and resentment are normal
parts of grieving.
