I had everything I could wish for:
friends, good grades, good classes. And
then; my family and I moved. All because
we lived in an apartment and they wanted a
house. I went to a new high school in the
middle of a town. I call the town
"forest", since i'm from the city and see
it as a forest. Anyway, only low-"high
class" people live here. They only buy
expensive clothes and drive across a
street...instead of walking. Since
there's only one sidewalk.
In my new high school; I had been put to
choose classes. I found out I've been
"misinformed"; though supposedly it was to
be obvious to me. Half my classes were
full so I was put in other classes. And
the other half had "mistakes" or didn't
exist at all. I frustrated; but I tried
to see it as an adventure.
People, people. Most (if not all) are
stuck-up. While trying out for the Drama
Club; they were practicing Les Miserables
without knowing ANYTHING of the French
Revolution. I couldn't stand such
ignorance.
Spanish club; I'm Hispanic; I was
disappointed to be the only one there.
And the only one from my grade. And quit.
French club, just quit. After finding
out clubs were really for people who took
the classes. No one talked to me... At
all... I felt really sad.
I talked to my friends from my old school
THRICE. That's it. I'm really sad. Now
the new year put me a year behind
basically. I have no friends. I probably
will not go to the prom and might not even
show up in graduation.
I hate everything!! Counselors are no
help. My family could care less. My old
friends have their own lives. I have no
new friends. I feel like... just to die.
I cry everyday.
I don't know what to do. I can't even
tell if I am depressed or just a loser.
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jason2jr
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 02 Mar 2007 Posts: 27 Location: Paramount, CA, 90723 US
Posted: 03-02-07 21:28pm
Sweetheart, you are depressed and you have
reason to be. You have been snatched away
from everything you are used to and asked
to live this fake life you dont like. Let
me tell you something, I have been
depressed before and its no fun. But dont
let it consume you. Find outlets that make
you happy. Me, I enjoy painting and going
to the gym. You may enjoy other things.
Also, The fact that you are talking about
it shows that you want help and dont want
to be sad. Let your parents know your
feelings. They are there for a reason you
know. And if you arent comfortable with
that then there are outlets at school that
you can look into. Just ask your
counselor. Good luck hun!
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littlesqueaks
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 06 May 2006 Posts: 296 Location: Caldwell, Idaho
Posted: 03-02-07 21:48pm
How old are you and how far away is your
old school from where you are? Is there
anyway that your parents might let you
drive into your old school so that you may
finish with your friends. Or does your
parents still work in the area of your old
school? could they transport you. I had to
nagotiate this with my parents when they
had moved and wanted to enroll me in
another high school. I was able to drive
the extra mile to attend the high school
that I wanted to.
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Sunshine123
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 05 Mar 2007 Posts: 1 Location: Massachusetts
Posted: 03-05-07 23:55pm
Meilleur,
I had gone through the same thing twice in
my school life. First, I was moved right
after elementary school to a new middle
school. Then I was moved to a new high
school. Since both new schools were in
different states, I couldn't keep my old
schools or my old friends forever. I
understand what you are going though.
After all the time I spent in my new high
school, I never really fitted (sp?) in.
Don't think that you are a loser because
you are not! From what I can gather from
your post, you are a good student and an
active person who likes to participate in
extracurricular activities. Let what you
love to do drive you and let your talent
shine through! There will always be
someone who appreciates who you are.
Continue to be a good student in school,
because those good grades will get you to
the college that you want to be in - trust
me, those four years are the most amazing
ones ever and don't let a bit of
putting-down in secondary school ruin your
chances to have the time of your life in
college!
Always look to the future, it will be
better.
~Sunshine123
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Meilleur
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 02 Mar 2007 Posts: 2
Thanks Everyone. Posted: 03-09-07 21:11pm
Thank you.
I seriously don't know what to do.
Sometimes I break down crying. My parents
truly don't care. They just go on how
they like the house. That's it. They
could care less of my school.
Counselors are, excuse my "French", crap.
Total crap. I've had 2 counselors. The
first one didn't care; and got a
promotion. The second one doesn't care,
since she was just put in for the job.
Then I went to the head counselor who,
surprise surprise, turned out to be my old
counselor. They are really no help. They
just agree to everything I say and go
"it'll be better"l and when I ask for
different classes (even for the year
after), they just disagree and repeat the
words "can't" and "impossible".
I cannot do much out of the house. I live
in a town, which call "forest" for a
reason. And I hate it. There's only
trees and more trees.
So, I cannot "socialize" anywhere outside
school. In my Intro to Physics (a useless
class that I wasn't suppose to take)
class; half the people hate me. And I
have no idea why. They all move away from
me; as if I have a virus or something. In
History; people only talk to me for
answers. And this girl hates me for no
reason. She always tells me that I not
"human", in many ways. One girl hates me
because she thinks I'm trying to be
"white"; when I am part white. (I'm
Hispanic, she's black). I used to have a
so-so friend. But then she got into her
own clique and now acts as if we never
met.
I am not that great at music; so I hate it
when I have to present my piece to the
class since some of the upperclassmen
laugh at me. The thing is, at my old
school, there was no music class. I had
to figure out every single thing as we
went on. In PE; I really hate the fact I
have to take it every year. I'm really
bad at PE, so no one talks to me. And
some kids give me faces that I also don't
understand why.
My phone has been broken; and my parents
are too cheap to buy another service.
They won't let me have a job (since I
might get "stuck" with that job, they
fear); so there goes the cell phone and
car.
I am sick!! I hate where I live! I hate
what I study! I hate my life!!!!! I
don't know what to do still. I swear I'm
going insane.
