No one knows how I feel and I feel that
everyone is against me....well i'm gonna
doing it kill myself then they can laugh
and I hope they are happy with that
they've done.
Bye evil world...sooner I die the better,
then they can laugh and I hope their
happy. The frustration is too much to take
anymore.
I shouldn't have to be like this at 17..I
want to be strong but I just cant. I want
to get away from these people. The only
time I feel hopefull is when I think of
dying..cos that will end it. Thinking
about be strong and going on s too much..I
cant take it and thats that.
What do I do
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lil_blaze2004
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Posted: 03-18-07 16:10pm
i feel totally the same way....today.
i've suffered from depression for about 15
yrs now and feel sometimes like I really
don't want to go on. i have a child to
care for though and don't trust anyone
else to raise him so I stay for him.
why are you feeling like this today? did
something happen to trigger it?
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Sphinxy
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 24 Feb 2007 Posts: 5
Posted: 03-18-07 16:30pm
Thanks for replying...
I just completley lost it. Received some
more bad news and i really am finding it
too much and things are probably gonna get
worse.
I feel so helpless and hopeless, its just
horrible. I'm not on any medication for
this at the moment , and I realize I
should go to the doctors so I might do
that this week.
I still am contemplating suicide...but the
same old guilty thoughts of what happens
are I've gone go through my head.
But then again living like this is too
much and if I don't stop soon i'm afraid I
really wont be able to stop myself and
that moment of anger and frustration could
be the moment i go.
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lil_blaze2004
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Posted: 03-19-07 07:39am
sorry for not replying sooner. I had a
rough day yesterday.
I think it would be a good idea to get
some preofessional help. YOu may have a
chemical imbalance that leaves you feeling
this way. I know how it feels when sh*t
keeps piling on you but there comes a
point where things can only get better.
At least you know you should get help.
Now it's to see if you take your own advie
and go see someone. sometimes just
venting helps.
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san54
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 28 Dec 2003 Posts: 227 Location: Virginia
Re:time to Die Posted: 03-19-07 08:09am
Please get help with a counselor ASAP.
Talk to your minister. Never is a good
time to die. Only GOD can say when it is
your time. There are people who care
about you. Don't give up. Being that you
were depressed before you had your baby.
You most likely have postpartum. See your
doctor and they can prescribe something
that won't hurt your baby, if you are
breast feeding. We all want you to live,
especially your baby. Please please please
get help. I will be thinking and praying
for you. God bless.
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Sphinxy
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 24 Feb 2007 Posts: 5
Posted: 03-19-07 15:45pm
Still feeling the same today, think ill
call the docs tomorrow or something.
I feel worried about going..what if they
don't believe me?
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futurelovers
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 10 Feb 2007 Posts: 101
Posted: 03-19-07 16:11pm
The doctors will believe you. Depression
is something you can see in a person's
eyes - so don't worry because they will
see it and will give you appropriate
treatment for it. Just go as soon as
possible because I can only see good
things coming out of that.
Hang in there Sphinxy - I've been there
myself, I even tried to kill myself once,
but now I just look back at it and think
how ridiculous it all was. Take my words
and trust me - I know it's hard to accept
any truths at this stage for you but this
is one truth you must accept.
The thing about depression is that it
comes and goes. Right now it came, but it
will go. Don't give in to depression
though because it is hard to pull out of
it but everyone can pull themselves out of
it.
Like I said, see a doctor as soon as
possible. After you have seen the doc -
talk to your parents, your friends,
counselor, pastor/minister, and whoever
else you know that you can talk to. Just
tell them exactly how you feel and they
will do everything they can to make sure
you are feeling great again.
