Something to Think About/look Into Posted: 04-05-07 10:38am
Here is some info I came across when
thinking I was bipolar. Take a look and
see if it resonates. If it does, follow
the link at the bottom, this could be your
saving grace. Cheers:
More Signs and Symptoms
Until you adjust and integrate the new
higher vibrational energies, you may feel
as if in a pressure cooker - nervous,
weighted down, shaken up and stressed out.
The purpose of these higher energies is to
accelerate your healing by bringing up old
karmic patterns, negative behaviors, and
faulty belief systems (etc.) up to the
surface to be looked at and released. It
is an intense process, but it works.
You may experience feelings of spatial
temporal bodily disorientation - not
knowing "where" or "when" you are (in
space and time). As these higher
dimensional energies are coming upon you,
your material 3rd awareness is being
shifted into and out of these other
dimensions. This is a temporary phenomenon
that lasts until you have adjusted,
integrated and grounded these new higher
vibrational energies.
Our aches and pains help us be aware of
our energy flows - or where they are not
flowing actually (this is one way our body
gives us feedback on what is going on "in
there"). As the higher vibrations and
energies move into those places in your
body-mind where you are holding old stuck
stagnant energies (otherwise known as
"blocks") it may feel like an ache or pain
(this includes headaches and flue like
symptoms). These symptoms are indications
that the physical body is attempting to
release the negativity and toxins that
have been held inside for so long. These
symptoms are perfectly normal - continue
to do the work and relax - when the block
has been completely released, the ache or
pain will go with it.
The "dream time" is when many of your
issues (accumulated over many lifetimes)
are being processing through the
subconscious mind. Your dreams may range
from being extremely vivid, violent,
sexual, perverse, bizarre, otherworldly,
alien, or just about anything (if it can
be imagined - it can be dreamed). These
dream images may not be exactly what
occurred for you in these past lives, but
they are the best approximation of how
your mind can interpret them (your mind
can only use what metaphors of symbols and
images that have been programmed into its
computer banks). It's not so much about
the details (and drama) of these events...
but it's the processing of the energies
behind them that's important. This is why
you do a lot of your dreaming at night -
your conscious ego-mind - that part of you
that wants to analyze and rationalize such
images to death - is put on hold (put to
sleep) at night, which allows you to
process these things on a much deeper
level (otherwise the ego-mind would pull
you out of your processing). And when your
subconscious mind has reached a saturation
point and can take no more (or when your
ego-mind starts to take hold of you
again), it may shift you into a state of
consciousness and wake you up at any odd
hour of the night.
The opposite happens too - feeling like
you want to rest or sleep during the day
time is one of the ways our conscious
ego-mind copes with being energetically or
emotionally overwhelmed with certain
"sensitive issues". If the higher
vibrational energies are hitting you
during the day, they will stir up some of
these deep unresolved issues - the
processing of which may make you feel
fatigued and lethargic (especially if your
energies are low to begin with). We see
this same thing occurring during the
healing sessions, except that you may find
yourself being put to sleep (while your
ego "turns off") and you start to process
on the deeper levels.
During this healing process, you may
develop such an exaggerated sensitivity to
your surroundings that you may become
intolerant to and easily overwhelmed by
external stimulations of any kind - no
matter how slight... be they odd random
noises, music, traffic sounds, the TV,
people talking, bright or multi colored
lights, a smell, some strong foods,
jarring movements like when you are in a
car, a touch, or even the texture of your
bed sheets... any of your senses can be
set off by the slightest of stimulations.
Understand that you are already going
through an awful lot of internal energetic
processing of some very old stuff - you
are already very full and very occupied
with doing that - adding any more outer
stimulation will only add to the fire of
that.
When you are feeling "fed up", try to get
away from it all - stay way from the city,
hang out in your room, go take a walk in
the park or in nature, go on a retreat in
the country, anywhere you can cut down on
the outer stimulations and give you the
space to process your inner stuff.
As the higher energies are hitting your
cellular biological emotional
systems, those issues that are connected
to your diet are coming up, including
cellular memories of past life food issues
(experienced during feasts and famines) as
well as emotionally charged "comfort food"
issues. You may go through periods of
dietary mood swings where you have unusual
food cravings - or have a complete loss of
appetite. Your body is trying to process
and adjust (or balance) on these primal
levels - don't fight it, don't judge it,
just flow with it. Processing the higher
energies does require a lot of food -
accept and honor that. This is hard work
on your body - be gentle with it (and
yourself).
And if you are experiencing weight gains,
realize that you are still
energetically, vibrationally or mentally
holding on to something - this being
reflected back to you on the physical
level in this way. Keep doing the healing
work - which will assist in your releasing
process. Continue to exercise, eat healthy
foods and drink plenty of water.
You may find yourself in situations that
you feared the most - your
"nightmares" or "worst case scenarios".
This is where your spouse runs off with
the kids (or dog), your pet fluffy or fido
escapes from your house or yard, you lose
a well paying job, your bank account is
getting near zero, there is a death in the
family, you or someone you love gets a
terminal disease, your car breaks down,
you are incapacitated in an accident, you
are mugged (or raped). I am sorry - none
of this is pretty, but they are all
challenges your soul (in accordance with
the Great Spirit) has set up for you - to
find your peaceful center throughout these
situations and help you confront and
overcome your limitations and karmic
issues. In retrospect - you will find the
silver lining to these dark clouds, and
you will glean the important life lesson,
and you will be a better person for
everything that happens - just like Jesus
transcended the limitations of his cross,
so to will you.
Periodically, you may have very strong
feelings about not belonging: feeling
alienated and isolated and estranged and
misunderstood from all those around you,
not fitting in to your work place or home
or community or climate or culture,
feeling as if you are finished with life
and have no other purpose or meaning to
being here anymore. You may likely feel
like ending it all - thinking about
suicide... which is understandable.
These feelings come up when you are trying
to break through one level of your "stuff"
(your energetic attachments to it) or are
sitting in the disillusionment about your
"stuff" that has just left you. Look out
for the possibility that you may be
secretly harboring a resistance to going
to the next level (and there are many more
levels - you just haven't gotten to them
yet). Be patient and hang in there - there
is more to life. You are going through a
temporary phase that will shift once you
go deeper in the work. "If" you were
complete here, Spirit would take you out
of this "Game of Life" in one quick jiffy
(without any help from
you I might add). You are here for a
profound reason - to complete your karma
and manifest your spirit self here through
this body. This takes patience and lots of
healing work. It is no accident you are
here - look for the meanings - it may take
a while, but they are in there.
When you are feeling spaced out, your
speech comes out in a muddled or confused
manner, and you are having a hard time
remembering things. You may think that you
are going insane or must have some serious
mental illness - but this is not so. The
spacey sensations indicate that your mind
is opening up and expand into new and more
liberated ways of thinking, feeling and
being - you are starting to experience
reality outside the box of the 3rd
dimension... this is a good thing - you
are just not used to it. Memory and speech
is a function of the left hemisphere of
the brain - which is associated with the
more worldly, horizontal, linear and
rational "thinking". The higher
vibrational energies coming into you are
shifting your attentions off the left
(which currently may be your dominant
side) and activating the right
hemisphere of the brain - which is
associated with the
spiritual/transcendent, vertical,
non-linear, irrational "feelings".
Spirit wants to create a balance between
these 2 hemispheres, but to do so may
involve a temporary diversion of your
energies and attentions from off your
"dominant" side... and shift it on to your
"dormant" side. When the 2 sides are
balanced out, then your memory and speech
will return to normal.
You may start to develop a distaste or
dislike for the more mundane things in
life... such as trivial or argumentative
conversations, the external trappings of
society, sports and other amusements and
activities, certain kinds of music and TV
shows, smoking, drinking alcohol,
synthetic medicines or recreational drugs,
your current job, old hobbies, familiar
haunts and comfortable habits, political
wars and social parties, cultural
stereotypical attitudes or behaviors,
meaningless sexual relationships, even
certain people whom you discover you now
have little in common with - be they
family, friends, partners or simply
acquaintances. All this is indicating that
your energies and
vibrations are no longer in alignment to
these other things and people. You are
being pushed to let go and move on. You
are changing from the inside out... and as
you are becoming a different person, so
too will you want to have and do different
things in your life.
So many extraordinary things are occurring
within your energy field and consciousness
- which the ego-mind (from its limited
grasp on the greater reality and higher
truths) can not understand. Through
application of these higher energies and
vibrations, your ego-mind is losing the
attachments (that "death grip") it had on
its limited (yet comfortable)
pseudo-identities, behavior patterns and
coping mechanisms... and is communicating
that loss to you as fear, anxiety and
panic attacks - which is the egos way of
trying to constrict the smooth
flow of the higher energies (thus shutting
you down and off). This will make you feel
powerless and vulnerable - so try to
breath deeply and relax... trust that you
are ok and this is all for your highest
and best good (and will pass). Know that
all these old identifications and ways of
being must go... in order to clear way and
create the space for the new and more
powerful and beautiful and wise and true
and loving you to come in and take over.
As you let go of those internal
pseudo-identities, behavior patterns and
coping mechanisms of your ego-mid... and
as those external people, places and
things that you were so attached to (but
did not serve your highest truths) start
to leave... you may feel depressed and
disillusioned with your life. Again,
everything that is not in alignment with
the new must be shifted out of the way if
the new is to come in.
Yet... for the old you, until this "new
self" comes in and is fully
integrated and grounded, the emptiness
felt in this "in between" state can be
difficult to tolerate. Be patient - this
will shift in due time. Just like the
physical birth takes time to come to
fruition, so too does it take time (a lot
more time really) for the High Self (the
"Christ Self") to be born. But when it
does, it will be a cause for you to
celebrate for the rest of your lives.
Because animals and little children have
so few filters and blocks, you may find
that they are often much more sensitive
and responsive to the higher energies and
vibrations that are working with you... so
much so they may become either frightened
of it (because they don't understand it)
or very attracted to it (because it
reminds them of home). Nice feedback for
you.
Any sort of electronic equipment (light
bulbs and computers included) may be
jumbled up or shorted out... if they are
within your energy field when a particular
high vibrational electo-magnetic energy is
channeling into you. (Interesting
phenomenon when it happens, unless your
computer crashes while you are using it).
This may be rectified if your energies can
become more grounded - helps if you spend
more time with your hands
and feet in the earth (and less time
around impersonal lectronics).
You may find your life is starting to take
unexpected twists and turns - events may
occur that are so far out from left
field... meeting people who you would
normally have never run into or had
nothing in common with before - you are
now in sync with. Plans that you made in
the past are now feeling uncomfortable -
and you suddenly start making new
surprising and different choices. You are
finally breaking out of your old energetic
and vibrational ruts and are starting to
function from a new paradigm of thinking
feeling and being... and this is just the
start.
