I have suffered with depression ever since
i left home three years ago. It has been
the kind of depression I feel I have no
control over no matter what I do. Both of
my parents suffer from severe mental
health problems and dont work because of
it. I am at university, doing relatively
well, but I have nobody to turn to- ive
tried counselling before, ive been to a GP
and all they do is offer me prozac- which
is quite frankly an not an option- having
seen the effect of medication on
individuals
Recently I have been eratic and very
unsettled, bursting in to tears, unable to
sleep or relax, I try to keep busy, but
this has become obsessive to the point
where I am so anxious of faliure that I
stay up until 4 every morning working.
Sometimes I feel superhuman, then other
times Im reflecting on how awful,
everything is in reality.
I hate where I am, what Im doing, I miss
my friends, Im contantly trying to change
everything, extremely dillusional, people
avoid me, i avoid them, or get angry and
everything I do is rubbish.
Does this sound like bipolar?
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polka22
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 11 May 2007 Posts: 1 Location: France
Re: I Think I'm Going Mad Posted: 05-11-07 17:41pm
Hiya
I think it does sound like you have
bipolar disorder. Everybody experiences it
differently but it sounds like you have
the manic thing and also the misery -
feelings of worthlessness, confusion,
self-loathing etc. Have you talked to the
health service at your university?
I was bi-polar for years and years before
i did anything about it, it didn't occur
to me i had a disorder, i thought i just
went periodically mad. I was scared of
medication but it's possible to find
medication that makes you feel 200 times
better yet you're still able to study, and
you can actually enjoy things instead of
feeling completely messed up all the time.
