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Just a Vent Posted: 04-27-07 20:48pm
This isn't about anyone from ehealth and I
really don't feel like elaborating, so
there's no need for any replies really. I
just wanted to get it off my chest.
It's a sad day when you realize how little
your opinion and/or feelings matter to
people you thought cared about you. People
you thought were your friends, people you
respect and care for a great deal. When
you realize that you can't say anything
in confidence anymore, because people you
knew you could trust betray
you and you're not sure who to turn to.
When things bother you so deeply it's hard
to lay that hurt aside, and if you bottle
it up it consumes you. People ask you
what's wrong but then roll their eyes when
you start to explain it, because they
don't want to hear it. If you're troubled
by it then you're "hanging on" and
"dwelling", and if you talk about it more
than twice in a day you're "obsessed". And
if you don't talk about it, you're "moody"
and "depressed".
It's hard to watch people who consistently
do the wrong thing and treat people badly,
get sympathy and compassion. When you make
a mistake and honestly apologize for it,
your apologies are ignored. You feel like
you may as well have apologized to a wall,
and it makes you wonder why you bothered
doing it at all, when it's apparent that
throwing a tantrum like a 4 year old seems
to wield better results. You try to tell
yourself that doing the right thing isn't
always easy and doesn't earn you any
trophies, but it doesn't help to ease any
of the pain.
Sometimes I wish I was capable of doing
the things that seem to earn the "respect"
of others, even if I can't stomach the
thought of doing them. Sometimes I wish I
could just belong and be liked for who I
am and what I believe in. I feel like
.i've wasted my time with a number of
people, and the disappointment is
consuming me. I feel like pulling back
behind a wall I had shattered long ago. I
don't want to be the bigger person
anymore. I don't want to turn the other
cheek and keep the peace, when others
won't give me the common courtesy of
acknowledging a heartfelt apology. I'm
tired of letting other people's faults
slip by without saying a word when they
feel compelled to punish me for mine after
.i've tried to make them right.
It's enough to make me sick to my stomach.
I'm just sick of everything.
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HcoBrunette06
Especially EHEALTHy
Joined: 06 Dec 2005 Posts: 8016 Location: Florida, United States
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Posted: 04-27-07 21:14pm
im sorry you're feeling this way babe if you need
anything you can pm me!!!
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Eyes Wide Shut
Especially EHEALTHy
Joined: 04 Jan 2006 Posts: 7892 Location: *UPTOWN*NEW ORLEANS*, La
Posted: 04-27-07 21:21pm
Girl, I'm sorry. I feel like that a lot of
the time as well. That's the reason I
don't have many friends in my everyday
life.
I have 2 good friends that I see daily,
and .k(who is truely an amazing
friend).
I'm sorry again...I wish I could hug you.
You could vent all you wanted with me on
the couch next to you!
Sarah
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Kia
Supporter
Joined: 23 Jun 2004 Posts: 6594 Location: Planet Tampaxia,
Posted: 04-28-07 03:13am
You know there's always an ear over here
to listen.
You don't need to elaborate, I know where
your coming from, maybe not in the same
situation but in general.
It always appears that s/he who whines
loudest - gets.
I remember refusing to give a customer a
refund on a used item because she no
longer liked it, and hed no receipt
either.
(like that's my problem)
and she stropped and whined and shouted
and the manager said "oh, give her a cash
refund".
hello?? why?? the product isn't faulty,
it's used and she has no proof of prucahse
anyway.
but yeah, she whined loudest so she got
her own way.
sucks, but that's life.
and yeah, I was told "let it go - it
doesn't matter" when I complained.
it was the principle of the issue that got
me annoyed.
i hate people like that, the reason i now
have no friends. but i know how that is
kia people did that at my work and the
manager gives in because he doesnt want
them going to corporate over something
sorta dumb in a way because those kinds of
people tend to do stuff like that. Makes
no sense , u can be soo nice and
considerate and get treated like crap,
happened with my sister she got the dvd
rom sims game and they wouldnt return it
to get the pc rom one . After going up
there 3 times and she ended up health
forum them out they did the exchange but
they wouldnt when she was nice about it
but u turn intoa cow and they do it. if i
was management i woldnt give the whiners
nothing. I cant stand people like that . I
wont change the way i am just to get my
way or make someone else happy. But i
sorta let people walk all over me at times
to. bad habit i gotta break.
Yes, this venting thing should do good...
Now my bit:
It seems that responsibility and adult
behavior is not awarded, especially not in
women. I know quite a few succesful women
who made a career out of behaving
irrationally.
And in general - why is that obsession
with plastic surgery, cosmetics, etc.
generates so much respect in adult
population? Ain't these often signs of
serious inner problems and insecurity?
Why on earth is such a thing celebrated
and rewarded, when the results in the vast
majority of cases just look silly and sad?
I mean, I wouldn't say that to a person
who just got operated, but I also need to
get it out of my system.
It seems that the value system as a whole
is paying far to much attention to
appearances, as opposed to feelings - you
are not allowed to express them and you
should always look all happy and
'groomed'. But the facade does not stand
up to scrutiny - one more reason why I'm
shy of human contact: I cannot stand the
hidden saddness...
if you need
anything you can pm me!!!
