This is really long, and I am sorry.. I just feel so alone and wanted to spell out my WHOLE situation.

I'm 6 weeks pregnant and worried because this is my second child. We have a beautiful 16 month old daughter already and currently live in an in-law apartment of my parents house. It's 1 bedroom, so my daughter sleeps in the walk in closet (it works! ). Anyway, I'm really scared right now. My fiance is completely against me having this baby. He didn't work all winter because he left his old job for a new one in November, then they didn't have enough work for him so we've been BROKE. We survived on what I make Nannying (140$ on a good week) and my credit card, but didn't pay rent for the last 6 months (not to mention my Dad paid my car isurance for me). He was supposed to start working FT April 1st, but he's only worked a total of 6 days since then. I keep trying to get him to get a new job but he seems so reluctant! I found out yesterday that his new job told him from the START that they wouldn't have work for him till April and that he just left his old job because "he was sick of working saturdays". I'm furious! We're in the hole about 4 grand with my credit card and I just started financing a car in december, and now I'm pregnant again. I haven't told my parents because I know they are going to freak out on me, ESPECIALLY since i was pregnant last october and had a misscarriage. I've had a tough time getting on birth control because of my migraines and even got an IUD which FELL OUT. (They are EXPENSIVE, but it's basically the only thing my doc will let me use because of my migraines. ) My fiance wants me to get an abortion, and although I am pro-choice, I don't believe that is the choice for me. I've thought of adoption, but although my fiance and I are both adopted by wonderful families, but we both know the pain that comes with and I don't think I can ever hand my child to someone. I'm just scared. He wont even talk to me about it and not many people know. I'm 22 years old, broke, my parents will probably throw me out of the house.. I am so depressed. I want to celebrate this wonderful life growing in me, but it's so hard right now.