Joined: 19 May 2007 Posts: 2 Location: canada, eh?
What Am I ... ? Posted: 05-19-07 22:40pm
i dont know what ive become. i had a few
issues in my life, and they seemed to take
a hold of me. some days, im fine and happy
and perky, the next the only thing i can
feel is hate and how much i want to die. i
know i am depressed, but i dont know how
severely or anything.
i feel like i cant talk to anyone about
it, not my friends or my mom or anyone. im
worried someone will tell me otherwise and
that im just a drama queen. and even if
they dont, how could i work up the courage
to tell them that theres something wrong?
but i know there is. the other day, the
only thing i could think of is how much i
wanted to die and how much i hate myself.
this anger is the only thing it seems like
i feel anymore. but its not always, when
im at school or whatever, i put on a happy
face for my friends, but then when i get
home im trapped with my mind. its like my
house is a ball and chain.
i googled depression, and i found the
whole topic confusing. dysthymia, manic,
bipolar, severe, PMDD, etc etc etc... i
havent the foggiest what i have, or even
if i have it!
id really really like to try
antidepressants, but again im so afraid to
talk to anyone. are there any
non-prescription antidepressants for
whatever the hell i have i can get on a
"bike ride" down to shoppers without my
mom knowing?
please help me. i dont know anymore.
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overturearrow
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 19 May 2007 Posts: 2 Location: canada, eh?
Re: What Am I...? Posted: 05-19-07 22:50pm
i know its long! but please, i need a
reply!
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littlesqueaks
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 06 May 2006 Posts: 296 Location: Caldwell, Idaho
Posted: 05-19-07 22:55pm
Not for positive but I have heard of St.
Johns Wart an over the counter medication
that helps with mood swings. I have heard
many positive responses from those that
have taken it. And I know that my step
daughters mother had also given it to her
to help her through her mood swings.
(depression, anxiety, PMS and other
symptoms) She was not consistant with it
so I am not sure if it was consistant with
it or not.
One of the toughest times in a girls life
is her teenage years, so don't think your
alone in your feelings I am sure there are
many girls around you that might feel the
same way. So don't be affraid to talk to
someone about what you are going through
if you feel that your problem is that
sever be open and honest with someone you
trust and try to get in to seek help.
But try the St John's Wart and see if it
works for you. Good luck.
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jessica38
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 12 May 2007 Posts: 9 Location: MA`,
Posted: 05-20-07 18:36pm
unfortunately, i'm not going to be much of
a help here, but i just wanted to let you
know that you're definitely not alone. i
know that i'm depressed (self-diagnosed),
and am way too scared to ever tell my
parents. scared and embarrassed, and i
wish there was a way to just get rid of
all of these awful feelings without having
to get a prescription. so if you do find
something, please let me know.
hope you find something that works..
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Fairy Godmother
Supporter
Joined: 11 Oct 2003 Posts: 1492 Location: , Georgia USA
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Hi Posted: 05-20-07 18:59pm
Sweetie, this is not something you are
going ot be able to handle alone. You are
going to have to find a mental
professional and be able to tell them all
you are feeling. Depression hurts and its
really hard soemtimes to try to put on
htat fake ass happy face and
pretendeverything in htewrold is just
fine...in reality you hate life. BEen
there, done htat...but there are meds that
can help. Its not your fault or anyone
elses, its a chemical imbalance in our
brain. I wish my parents had figured this
out 30 years ago. Sometimes it may take
several attempts trying different meds
that will take that edge off, but when you
do, its like LIFE TURNS around. Feel free
to IM me if you'd like. I do understnad
because I have been there and if you need
to talk IM me!
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goodhealth2u
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 22 May 2007 Posts: 17 Location: Indianapolis, IN
Posted: 05-22-07 20:55pm
Dear Overturearrow,
You should really find someone to talk to.
It is important for you to know that you
are not alone. You are not crazy. It's a
chemical imbalance.
If you aren't convinced to go to talk with
your family and go to a doctor, then here
is another option. Find a local health
food store. There are good natural
products that can help with depression.
Someone in the store would be glad to help
you out.
I found a store locally that had someone
that could evaluate you and suggest what
herbs or vitamins you should take. Some
places they do that for free and sometimes
they charge.
At one point in my life I didn't have
insurance so I couldn't afford the drugs
so I tried herbs. They really helped me
alot.
Just please make sure you do something.
There are a lot of people here cheering
you on to good health.
Most Sincerely,
Karen
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goodhealth2u
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 22 May 2007 Posts: 17 Location: Indianapolis, IN
Posted: 06-06-07 23:01pm
Overturearrow,
How are you doing? You haven't posted any
updates? Have you found someone to talk
to?...a friend...a family member...a
doctor?
I just wanted to check in and see how you
were doing.
