Light Blood

Hun, I am so sorry. So many of these girls have been through it and will be such a great support. I can't imagine how difficult this is for you and your husband right now.

I am so sorry girl! I went through this a couple of months ago and even though you are still early, it still tears you apart inside. Let me know if you need to talk.

I'm sorry that this happened.

If you need to take some time away from here I understand. But please keep us updated. We care about you very much and we are here for you if you need anything!

Amanda,

I cant believe that I didn't see this post yesterday. I am so sorry that this is happening. Nothing I say will make you feel any better, I realize that, just know that we are all here for you if you need to talk or vent or whatever. I will keep you and your husband in my prayers. I can only imagine what you both are going through right now. Your right though, god does have a plan for each and every one of us, so if you just keep beliveing in that, you will be ok. Take good care of yourself, and your dh.

Awe.. I am so sorry to hear that. I went through that in October. I am so sorry. It is hard to deal with but lord willing things will get better.

Thank you all for your support its really does help. I think my husband is taking it worse than I am. I have accepted it and am trying my best to do other things. I have cried all that I can cry. My husband however sat in the living room all night with a little baby orc ( shrek ) that says da da crying. I stole it from him and hid it today its so sad because thats how I told him I was pregnant. =0( I don't know what to do. I don't know how to make him feel better. I will keep trying.

As for me the bleeding has gotten worse and I am now cramping very badly. Still no clots but that does not mean anything I was so early there may not be any.

I am pulling myself up out of my depression but the first thing I did yesterday was have a cigarette. I think when I get home I will crack open the champange I put away. I just keep telling myself that its ok and that I will have a baby some day and that there are people out there who have suffered worse than I have. I am keeping as positive of an outlook as I can. I also think of it in a very unselfish way of "maybe my baby had to leave me so someone elses baby could live" ya know Maybe its gods plan. Maybe he made one to many babies that day or maybe he accidently Put the head where the leg should be. You never know . I just have to stay positive. Its just hard.

I am so sorry for your loss.

Thank you everyone fro your kind and comforting words. I am feeling better today. as for my husband he a lot better as well. I still sit on the couch and spontaneosly burst int uncontrolable tears but trust me its an improvement. I wanted to say goodluck and lots of sticky dust to all the girls who got BFPS this time around. I wish nothing more than a healthy 9 months for all of you.

Now its time for me to try again and try we will. =0)
Hugs to you all and expecially that little cutie named finn he is just the most adorable munchkin I have ever seen. =0P

-Amanda

aww, thank you so much! finn thanks you too!

i'm so glad to hear that you're doing better. i cried for months, there's nothing wrong with grieving as long as you need. it really is a devastating time but it'll get easier as the days go on.

can you start trying right away or did your doctor recommend a break? good luck and lots and lots of sticky baby dust to you!

Doctor told me as soon as the bleeding subsides we can try again. We are not supposed to have sex but we broke the rules a few times already. BEING SAD AND DRINKING CHAMPANGE IS A BAD THING. One positive thing that came out of this pregnancy and loss is that we now know we can have children =0) and well when I lost my last baby my sex drive went away and stayed that way until now... It's back ladies and I am glad it is. Yeah I have been poking my nose in here for quite some time and I have followed all your stories ( sorry to be a lurker lol!) I have decided that once all this is over I am going to completely give up cigarettes and Caffiene. I have been reading and they can Cause miscarriages Derrr. I use to be a heavy heavy caffiene drinker (3 redbulls a night) to keep along with my world of warcraft playing husband. I did this upo until I found out I was preggo and I was a heavy smoker of about 1/2 to a pack a day. I gave both of those up the day I found out but Alas Damage was done. Next wek is going to be a new start. No Cigs No red bull. I am determined to get pregnant again But..... I am not going to track its to stressful. =0) Hugs Everyone!