Its seems like every day is the same. I
have a mental problem and every day i
think suicidal because i cant F'n stand
it. I see things in a different way ever
since i got heavy into drugs. I used 2
snort coke and smoke weed for 2 yrs in
highschool every day. I Quit then started
again smokin bud every day and poppin
pills then met the wrong guys n started
tweaking..prob for like 5 months and even
got so messed up i huffed spray paint. I
have been clean 4 over 5 months now and
ever since then my perception on life in
general hasn't been the same. Doctors say
there's nothin wrong with me but thats jus
F'n B.S.
when im having a conversation with 1
person or more theres more than wut their
literally saying..its like i can
understand a whole diffrerent meaning 2
wut they say. And its SO F n strange i
Dont get it at all. Im wondering if i
just do sum coke again i'll think normal
but idk. Now i just try 2 figure out
every day but dont happen. I end up
getting drunk. Then its the same caca
over n over im really losing my mind. I
just think it ain't real and its a dream
or im dead.maybe this is heaven or
hell..who really knows.its got 2 the point
where i just dont Give a F ne more. If i
die tomorrow then good.Sh** Never changes
anyway. So Live It Up!
