so my bp was high again and there was a bit of protein in my urine.
No swelling but my doctor is pretty sure I have developed just a mild case of pre-e.
I have to do a 24 urinalysis ( fun fun )
and I'm definately on modified bedrest.
I have an ultrasound scheduled for friday and depending on my urinalyis I may even be admitted to the hosiptal tomorrow.
But he said if I am it probably wont be for too long and I'll more than likely be sent home and put on bed rest.
If the case is severe ( which he pretty much assured me it isn't ) they would deliver..but they could possibly decide to do that even if it's just a mild case as well.
I'm 37 weeks on Saturday... that's considered full term right?
meh... I don't know.
He said many women develop it here or later, just mild cases and they are monitered and get plenty of rest and go full term and deliver healthy babies...
So although it is very serious, if taken care of properly I'll be just fine.
I feel so sad... I don't know why, I'm just disappointed and a little scared.
Like I said it's not 100% but , it kinda is lol ya know?
I feel guilty and fat! On top of all that I've gained 8 lbs in the past week, which he is also quite concerned about because I assured him that my appetite hasn't increased ... if anything it has decreased

Who know's I'm just all messed up.
I also called work to let them know and tell them I'm done... I don't have any other options and she asked me If I could AT LEAST do my shift tomorrow.
I told them no I couldn't I am on B-E-D-R-E-S-T ... and the broad didn't even give a crap, didn't even sound concerned , all she could say was "well I don't how we're gonna cover your shifts"
Like I've been telling her for some time she's gonna have to ease up on my schedules because something could happen and I might not make it in AND I told her I can't open and close by myself anymore (just in case something happened! I wouldn't want to risk it!) and that's all I'm scheduled for so oh well it's her problem now.
medical answer retail
sorry. I'm just not having a good day and that just topped it off.
So that's my long vent.
Sorry for babbling.