Joined: 14 Jun 2007 Posts: 11 Location: california
Having Abortion Tomorrow Posted: 06-14-07 16:03pm
Hi there, I am new here, but I have been
reading for over a year. I guess I never
had the nerve to join. But I just found
out last week about being pregnant. I am
choosing to end it, since I am very firm
about my choice that I do not want
children. I got pregnant about a week
after my last depo shot was supposed to be
done again. I couldnt get a appt, so we
were using condoms, but here I am.
I guess I am just looking for some kind
words, I keep looking online, and all I
can really find are 'reasons to not have
an abortion, abortion is wrong, deal with
the consequences.....' even those that
look like they might be helpful are just
pro-life in disguise. Please no lectures.
I am very sorry about what I am doing, but
I know that it would be worse to continue
this pregnancy out of guilt. I can not
take care of a baby I am a full time
student, plus I know now that I do not
have the will power to put myself aside
and care for a child the way they would
deserve.
Just a little reassurance from someone
else would be nice, I guess.
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rasuyoung
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Joined: 17 Jan 2006 Posts: 464 Location: Long Island, NY
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Posted: 06-14-07 16:28pm
I don't think you should apologize to
anyone for what you're doing. This is a
very emotional time for you and you
deserve to have people who support you at
your side. I think the most important
thing is making sure this is absolutely
what you want to do, and it sounds like it
is. Stray strong tomorrow, and be sure to
seek out counseling afterwards if you
think you need it.
Planned Parenthood is a good resource, by
the way.
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Birch
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Posted: 06-14-07 17:08pm
You don't have to justify your reasons for
an abortion to anyone.
Abortion can be the right decision.
You will find more abortion horror stories
online than good ones because people with
good experiences move on, and don't turn
into these fire spitting, demon possessed
entities intent on making decisions for
you.
You're making the right decision for
yourself, and that is what matters.
Best wishes!
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froggystile79
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 14 Jun 2007 Posts: 4 Location: California
Posted: 06-14-07 17:33pm
[removed - inapproriate comments as OP has
stated is certain she wants an abortion]
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JustD
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 14 Jun 2007 Posts: 4
Posted: 06-14-07 18:17pm
if that's the choice you've made don't let
anyone make you feel bad about it. I have
been through it, if you need someone to
talk to, PM me.
It's not selfish to choose to live you
life the way you want, so just know that.
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charlierussell
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 14 Jun 2007 Posts: 11 Location: california
Posted: 06-14-07 20:31pm
Thanks everyone for your comments, it
actually really helps. JustD, I may take
you up on your offer for pm, after its
over maybe. Thanks.
rasuyoung and Birch THANKS! I know you are
right, but it feels so much better hearing
it from someone else you know?
And your right, people are probably moving
on with their lives, not harping on it as
others would who are focused on the
actions of others. I was just thinking
reasurance from ones with experience could
help.
Froggy while I understand your point of
view on prolife, adoption just is not an
option for me. All I asked myself when I
found out was could I go through the whole
thing??? Even knowing I would be giving it
up, I personally feel that I would be
adding to a problem already too big. There
are so many children who already need
home, one that would have to wait, because
I have a brand new one ready for taking. I
dont like that idea at all. I am sorry.
Even now, I dont like how I feel, I want
this to be over.
Thanks all.
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jenn_smithson
Active User, Really EHEALTHy
Joined: 15 Nov 2004 Posts: 808 Location: Texas
Re: Having Abortion Tomorrow Posted: 06-17-07 23:53pm
charlierussell
wrote:
Hi there, I am new here, but
I have been reading for over a year. I
guess I never had the nerve to join. But I
just found out last week about being
pregnant. I am choosing to end it, since I
am very firm about my choice that I do not
want children. I got pregnant about a week
after my last depo shot was supposed to be
done again. I couldnt get a appt, so we
were using condoms, but here I am.
I guess I am just looking for some kind
words, I keep looking online, and all I
can really find are 'reasons to not have
an abortion, abortion is wrong, deal with
the consequences.....' even those that
look like they might be helpful are just
pro-life in disguise. Please no lectures.
I am very sorry about what I am doing, but
I know that it would be worse to continue
this pregnancy out of guilt. I can not
take care of a baby I am a full time
student, plus I know now that I do not
have the will power to put myself aside
and care for a child the way they would
deserve.
Just a little reassurance from someone
else would be nice, I
guess.
You don't have to feel or
be sorry about your choice. As long as
you're sure, that's all that matters.
I've been in your shoes, made the same
choice, and I still feel and know that it
was the right decision for us.
If you want to look at some legitimate sites, there are
some:
www.prochoice.org
(make sure it's .o.r.g because the
[dot]com site is actually a "prolife" site
in disguise)
www.imnotsorry.net
(stories from other women and if you feel
comfortable about your story later on, you
can post too)
www.yourbackline.org
(you can call them, they are a volunteer
support team who gives honest information
and genuine support without guilt)
www.4exhale.org (a
post-abortion support line, should you
need it)
www.nnaf.org (you may
be able to qualify for some funding to
help out with the cost if you don't have
insurance)
www.lifeandlibertyforwomen
.org/truth_about_photos.html (documented information about
commonly used so-called "abortion"
pictures that some people use - hint: if
they aren't using a photoshopped Anne
Geddes pic, they are usually using a pic
of a stillbirth or late-term miscarriage)
www.rcrc.org
(Religious Coalition for Reproductive
Choice)
www.theabortiondiaries.com
(an independent film, the first 10
minutes are on the site for you to view.
If you can afford it or if there is a
showing near you, it's worth it to see).
Most of these sites have links to other
prochoice or, at the very least, honest
and informational sites on them.
Best of luck! Keep us posted on how
you're doing!
Peace,
Jenn
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charlierussell
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 14 Jun 2007 Posts: 11 Location: california
How It Went Posted: 06-18-07 19:06pm
This is a long one, Sorry!
Thanks all. I actually had a very easy day
Friday. The Dr was amazing, he talked to
me the whole time (just about general
stuff - school, family..) He told me when
to expect something to hurt, but while it
did hurt some, it was not the worse thing
I have ever been through. I didnt cry like
I thought I would. I knew it was the right
choice and I still feel the same way.
So for anyone curious (I know I looked for
this type of info beforehand):
(this is after I talked about
choices/options)
Friday morning they gave me 1 valium (they
offered more plus option of an IV - but I
was going to drive myself so I declined.
You can only have 1 if you are going to
drive) They also gave me 2 pills to put in
my cheek to make the proceedure easier
(cervix softens). I went to waiting room,
there were two other girls there for same,
we opted to stay together - you can also
wait alone. you have to wait about 90
mins for meds to work.
Took me to room and Dr came in quickly
asked me if I was sure, told me what he
was going to do, said I might want an IV
again (I declined) He gave me 2 locals
(shot) in the cervix area to numb. Then
started. The whole thing was less than 10
mins. And like I said he talked to me very
nicely. He was warm and warned me if he
thought I would feel pain.
Over all very little pain.
After:
They put me in a big lazy-boy style chair
with a heating pad while I waited for my
new birth control (I chose Depo) and meds
for after (to lessen bleeding and to avoid
infection), gave me crackers and apple
juice. I was ok then just a little sore
like cramps. Todays Monday and I am still
a little sore but nothing big and not
interfering with the day. I only had 1 day
of bleeding and stoped spotting on Sunday
morning.
I know this was long I just thought I
would tell my story in case anyone wants
info.
Thanks for all of the nice comment and the
links to other sites.
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Birch
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Posted: 06-20-07 13:29pm
Thanks for keeping us updated.
How do you feel now? Physically,
emotionally...
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Cambion
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Posted: 06-20-07 13:50pm
Glad to hear you had an okay experience.
Hope you get to feeling well soon.
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charlierussell
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 14 Jun 2007 Posts: 11 Location: california
Posted: 07-11-07 14:50pm
Hi all, thanks for the posts. As for how I
am doing - I am fine, never had any real
pain like I said, and as of now I am still
not regretting my decision. It really was
for the best and I know that. Thanks for
the support.
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R-I
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 15 Jun 2007 Posts: 253
Posted: 07-15-07 21:33pm
Im glad everything went well Thank you for
sharing your story. I know it will help
other people.