Ending a Relationship Forum - Please Explain This

Now I don’t want to be to long and drawn out about this but I am still looking in the mirror saying what the heck just happen. Here goes there is one women in my life that I love and she said she loved me. Well about four years ago I moved to another state and she decided that we should break up so we did, but remind in contact and still became even better friends. She even dated other people during this time but still continue to tell me how much she loved me. Than she broke up with the person she was with. And we still continued to be friend till we both came to our senses if you were to listen to the friends around us. She would constantly tell me that she loved me and I was the one and I feel the same way. We really don’t have any issues between us.

So I decided I should relocate back to where she was. Now me being a man had a time frame to move and make sure to line work new home Etc... but she could not wait to see me so I gave in.

We decided I would just live in her home and than look for a new home once I was there. Well I got there and it was fireworks and big declarations of love and than on week Two she comes to me and tell me something was missing and it was not me and was sorry for having me move here. So I tell her I love her and that than she needs to find out what it is and tell me so we can talk. A week later yesterday she tell me that she does not know what’s bothering her because she does love me. But she had a solution maybe I should just live in her house and she will move. Until I buy a home, So I ask her were would she move and she tells me she does not have a lot of options so it would be move in with her old boyfriend whom I and now finding out is still text messaging her which to a point I did not mind till I notice she was getting them in the evening. Now I don’t know what is being said and I don’t think it is any of my business. And she is still in bed with me at night and I want to respect her and her word that it have been over for a long time and it is just that he won’t give up. Ok here is the question WHAT THE BLEEP IS GOING ON?????

I not smothering her and have only been here week three started on Tuesday. have not started working yet in Real Estate and need to get lic. but have pretty much finished state required classes started when I got here. She has three teenage Kids and I have become a secondary pickup and drop off person as well as trying to help her at her request with one Kid that has decided the drug world is what he wants. I am not blind to her feelings so I don’t believe in smothering or even. trying to control what and where she goes. the one this we had both agree on at the very start of our relationship was to be open and talk and that we both needed our own lives. Look I had planned to wait and move a little later in the summer. this was at her request. and she has admitted that to me. but I am just confused. today good example. After hitting me last night with that bat. She wakes up kisses me and tell me I love you. Now I have never been a jealous person or even worried about what a women may be doing when I am not there. if is meant to be than it will be I can only show How I may feel and be honest about that.

Than if that has any truth to it why the months of talking about our future even down to honeymoon locations and the declarations of love. Totally confused!!!!

She may want some space and that has been posed , but we are also talking about a breakup that has been almost a year at least that is what I was led to believe. The break up had to do with being slightly up faithful and drinking

I would be temporary parent while she moves I do believe. Don't get me wrong she in no way is kicking me out , she just feel that since she created the problem this is her solution.

I have express my feeling on the ex and I really feel that she also inflicting a lot of pain there also. (Although I really don't know him or even have any bad thoughts towards him).

So here is the plan in about three weeks I will be in an apartment, and move on from there. I love this women with all my heart, but I am not going to sit around like a lap dog.

Well as the world turns woke this morning and she was getting ready for work and had already packed some things in the car. As far as the graduation, I am now being told that she does not want me to go because how would she explain it to her son's grandparents. When I first arrived the discussion was that he would be there and she was not sure how that would go, but since he had help get him in the program it was not right for him not to be there and I agree. Like I said before I have not bad feelings for him.

I was told that she packing now because she feel so bad about what's she doing and it is making her sick. But she stills loves me and can understand why I am so hurt and angry. I am thanking god that I have kept my reaction to just quiet conversation. I really don't see how any other way would help.

I have to say I've never talked about anything online before but I really had no where to go to talk about this. when I did decide to talk to my brother who live in another state and she also knows him. I find out she had already called and told him so what's up with that.

Trust me I moving She came home Saturday morning and moved more clothes and ran errands all day and than this evening came in got a blanket and some coffee beans and yogurt and dropped her daughter off and said she would see me early Sunday morning. that the just of it. She is about to go out of town and I told her I would not be here when she returns. Now she telling me that maybe she acting this way because she has always been abandon my men. Well I've been in her life form the last four years even when she decided 3 years ago that we should not see each other since I lived in a another state. even though I flew her out to se me a regular basis. Look one problem I have with this is that I have never met anyone I have felt so complete with. up to this point we could talk about anything even when we were not dating we developed a great friendship. So this adds to the whole out of left field action. I move back here to marry her and we had talked about that as well. Look I knew about the ex She would call me and talk about there problems and why she knew it was not for her so they broke up and that been about 9 to 10 months. are you guys suggesting that she has been lying to me or is she just running and running in a direction that will insure us never being together. I am not sure how get over this she has been my inspiration .

Please Explain This - I'm So Confused !!!