Ever since I can remember I've had a
problem with eating disorders. At one
point I got help and got better...at least
for while. It wasn't until this morning I
realized I really had a problem. I have
been crying and bawling ever since my
daughter banged on the door while I was
purging. When I opened the door, there she
was wearing a pair of my capris, fitting
her around the waist but long enough to be
pants. She is 10 and I am 30. I have 5
children, 3 boys and 2 girls. My 10 year
old daughter is already starting to
'watch' calories. She only weighs 57
pounds and she's watching her weight! What
have I done? I hadn't even realized I
started purging. I have never done this
before. I was mainly anorexic and when I
was bulemic I mis-used laxatives. I've
just realized that I'm addicted to
laxatives, clenbuterol and ipecac. I
hardly ever eat and when I do I'm dousing
my body with these harmful 'chemicals'. I
don't know what to do. My husband doesn't
know...and quite frankly I'm afraid to
tell him. He won't understand. He'll tell
me to stop without realizing that it's not
that simple. I'm at a point where just
talking isn't going to make a bit of
difference. I need some serious treatment.
I am at a loss but I need to get better,
if not for me for my children. I cannot
imagine the pain of watching one of them
become like me. Where do I start? I HAVE
to get help and now is not fast enough!
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Jess18
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 23 Jun 2007 Posts: 8 Location: Canada
Posted: 06-27-07 17:39pm
If you don't know the number to a
treatment facility, call your local ER and
ask them for a number. Or, you could ever
go into the ER, and tell them your
problem. They will probably admit you
immediately, and set you up with a
treatment facility.
Keep us posted on how you're doing.. and
I'm very proud that you're taking the
initiative to get yourself better =)
That's a huge step.. and your children
will definitely thank you for it soon
enough. because they'll actually have a
mother in a few days..
Congrats and good luck with everything
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v00d00cita
Advanced Support Team
Joined: 04 Mar 2006 Posts: 718
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Posted: 06-28-07 02:42am
Hey, welcome here.
You're taking an important step, so you
gotta have strengh to carry on. Do as Jess
said and contact professional people who
will definitely know how to help you.
Good luck and keep posting
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model2go
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 16 Jul 2007 Posts: 5 Location: indiana
Get Help Posted: 07-16-07 09:24am
get help because if you keep doing this
your daugfhter could develope one.i
developed it at 12 and i am now 14.i am
underweight and malnutritioned.you need to
get help for the sake of you and your kids
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AllieGirl77
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 26 Jun 2007 Posts: 8 Location: USA
Posted: 09-20-07 21:27pm
Hey everyone...it's been a while but I
made it back. You'll be happy to know that
I did some inpatient treatment and am now
seeing someone as an OUT patient. I will
say I am not completely cured, as I still
think about food almost every second of
every day and I will admit I do slip up
once in a while, but I DO know and am more
aware of it now. Who knows, maybe someday
I'll be cured..it's what I'm working
towards. It's a long road but I choose
life.
For anyone else here suffering,
please...if I can do it, so can you.
Bulimia is second nature to me after years
and years of suffering and I'm working
towards a better life. I'm learning from
it and taking that experience with me. You
can too. I admit I'm still afraid of who I
am without it, but I believe the end
result is worth the effort. If you're
suffering from an eating disorder, PIPE UP
and let us help!!
Jess18
wrote:
If you don't know the number
to a treatment facility, call your local
ER and ask them for a number. Or, you
could ever go into the ER, and tell them
your problem. They will probably admit you
immediately, and set you up with a
treatment facility.
Keep us posted on how you're doing.. and
I'm very proud that you're taking the
initiative to get yourself better =)
That's a huge step.. and your children
will definitely thank you for it soon
enough. because they'll actually have a
mother in a few days..
Congrats and good luck with
everything
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bibisim
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 08 Aug 2007 Posts: 76
Posted: 09-21-07 01:23am
Hi Allie,
I am so glad u are doing better, u are
great, 5 kids, its a challenge. God bless
u and ur family.
I have suffered almost as long as u have
and am about ur age. I also do believe in
recovery.
The system I have discovered myself is
releasing the tension and the energy spent
on ED fear comes back to u. u feel
energized as a newborn. One day I said
enough is enough and just had left the
binge stress go, I just could not go
further with this stress.
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