Im suffering from depression Posted: 06-27-07 00:10am
I guess im suffering from depression ? I
dont really know... I feel so lost, and
like every decision i make is the wrong
one. I cant please anyone and no one
cares. I moved away for a year to get away
from my old life, and now i hate my new
life. My friends dont care enough to call,
or even mention that they miss me. I make
all the effort in every relationship and
never get anything back. My family barely
exsists, and make it seem like having me
around is a burden on their lives. I have
very big body issues and feel that i will
never be pretty enough to be accepted. It
takes me hours to get to sleep and when i
wake up the anxiety is overwhelming. I
keep saying, oh ill be happier when this
happens, or, ill be happier when i buy
this. And then it comes and im still not
happy. I cry a lot, almost everyday. Im
starting to think this is too hard, and i
will never escape how i feel.
I was in an emotional abusive relationship
for the past two years, called names,
cheated on, treated like i didnt exsist at
times. Is this the reason ive changed into
this depressive person ive become? How can
i get out of this... this is really
starting to affect my life far too much
and i miss the person i used to be.
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lovedancer45
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 27 Jun 2007 Posts: 4
Posted: 06-28-07 12:20pm
the question id like to ask is who was the
person you used to be? if you really loved
who you were what changed so much that you
can't go back to that? it sounds like a
lot of the things that have happened in
your life have led you to an even
unhappier state.
its hard sometimes to get through life.
sometimes you just have to put certain
things behind you and move on. i know its
easier said then done but once you can get
over these things that are bringing you
down youll be a much happier person. do
what YOU want and what YOU love. if your
friends dont care enough about you to miss
you, then they aren't worth it. i had ONE
amazing best friend for the past 7 years
and thats all i need to get through. you
can always make new friends and find new
people to date, thats whats so great about
life, best friends can turn up in the
strangest of places! = ) the internet is a
great tool, you can talk to people who
feel like you and can help you. or you
could go talk to someone professionally if
you think that would make you feel better.
whatever you choose make sure its what you
want to do and what makes you happy!
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imaginary
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Re: Im Suffering From Depression Posted: 06-29-07 02:18am
sunkissed2279
wrote:
I guess im suffering from
depression ? I dont really know... I feel
so lost, and like every decision i make is
the wrong one. I cant please anyone and no
one cares. I moved away for a year to get
away from my old life, and now i hate my
new life. My friends dont care enough to
call, or even mention that they miss me. I
make all the effort in every relationship
and never get anything back. My family
barely exsists, and make it seem like
having me around is a burden on their
lives. I have very big body issues and
feel that i will never be pretty enough to
be accepted. It takes me hours to get to
sleep and when i wake up the anxiety is
overwhelming. I keep saying, oh ill be
happier when this happens, or, ill be
happier when i buy this. And then it comes
and im still not happy. I cry a lot,
almost everyday. Im starting to think this
is too hard, and i will never escape how i
feel.
Mee too hav the same probs of U..quoted
abve....We can hope that everythin will be
okay......Body issues must
be treated...My parents r not bothered abt
my pain..they are not takin me to a
doctor..They say that its not a great
thing or they say tht they know that it
doesnt pain for U much...as if they say
tht am pretendin that am painin..I dun say
anythin to my parents...
I learned a lot from my life..I hav been
experiencin..many probs since 5or 6 yrs..I
too feel that am depressed..I dun
complain,I dun cry infront of others..so
they dun care...
So better U must talk to sum one abt ur
probs..just dun act as if I do..
B open ..talk with some1..some1 U trust
.....
Try to be happy..Hope that everythin will
b ok..I know tht it sounds hard for U..bt
still..If others dun care abt U..its U who
hav to care abt urself...If crying makes U
good..then just cry...I doent harm ur
health..rite??
get engaged in something...wich u hav
interest on..
Be open if U can...dont alaways keep Ur
probs inside ur mind n make it worse...am
able to say these things to U..'coz am
also sum1 who pain like U..
Try to be happyy.....
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randomguy1
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 30 Jun 2007 Posts: 17 Location: US
Posted: 07-01-07 01:19am
ppl work 40+ hours a week at jobs they
dont like.... to earn the money they spend
on things to satisfy ppl they dont really
care about or like!!!! does that sound
familiar.... ring ring...
self-dependence and self-esteem are your
two secret weapons to start thinking
better and to become strong against other
ppls mental wounds
read up on "4 agreements" by "don miguel
Ruiz" there are easy to listen audio books
available for less than 20 bucks on amazon
or somewhere on intrnt
dont take it personally if no1 cares about
u.... u only need yourself 2 care about
u... and that will lead to others caring
about u also in long term
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seabirds awaiting spring
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 02 Jul 2007 Posts: 13 Location: In a pit surrounded by great beauty
Hi, Sunkissed! Posted: 07-02-07 21:29pm
sunkissed2279
wrote:
I make all the effort in every
relationship and never get anything back.
My family barely exsists, and make it seem
like having me around is a burden on their
lives.
It takes me hours to get to sleep and
when i wake up the anxiety is
overwhelming.
I cry a lot, almost everyday. Im starting
to think this is too hard, and i will
never escape how i feel.
I was in an emotional abusive relationship
for the past two years, called names,
cheated on, treated like i didnt exsist at
times. Is this the reason ive changed into
this depressive person ive become? How can
i get out of this... this is really
starting to affect my life far too much
and i miss the person i used to be.
This is my first time on the forum ,
sunkissed. i'm not comfortable talking
about my issues in public. But I really
felt kinship with you, kinship of
heart-feelings. I haven't been cheated
on. But some of the other things you are
feeling are going on with me, too. So I
know how difficult it can be. How
hopeless it seems. But it sounds like you
DO have hope, you DO look for some way to
find true and lasting happiness.
If someone calls you a name, they
obviously don't have anything substantial
about your character to talk about, do
they?
I'm really put down at times, whether
that's for real or just inside my head I'm
not certain. I think it's for real.
I can't sleep till very late, waking up
times during the night either angry or
just utterly to the core depressed and
hopeless feeling. When you find out how
to get around that, let me know.
Two years must seem like forever. Are you
out of that abusive relationship now? Are
you trying any new things to get beyond
the depression? Finding new friends,
going to a church or joining a new club or
anything? It helps me just to be outside
walking, away from all the reminders and
the things that affect me so strongly. Do
you like walking just to be walking?
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sunkissed2279
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 26 Jun 2007 Posts: 2
Posted: 07-03-07 19:46pm
wow,
i honestly thought no one would reply.. i
am shocked.. thank you all very much for
your kind words and helpfullness. I really
appreciate it, more then you think.
I am working very hard to try to find the
person i used to be. Lovedancer, you asked
who that was - i was strong, independent,
confident and happy. I really want to be
her again, so im struggling but each day i
find myself getting better. It seems so on
and off, one day im fine, the next day im
back in the dark hole, but i should expect
it to be like that for awhile right?
It sounds like everyone has some great
suggestions... i've been trying to get out
and try new things, and have made attemps
to make some friends. So far it seems to
be going ok. Seabirds, I walk everyday,
beacuse it relaxes me and makes me feel
like i can do anything! I am also writing
in a journal when i get down - a
suggestion from a doctor. I write all the
things i enjoy, all the things i love,
though sometimes i find it very hard to
write anything. But im supposed to find
one thing a day i can be happy about.
Seabird i did end my abusive relationship,
it was hard but it was something that
needed to be done. It is really hard
because we moved away together and were
each others best friends, and now im here
all alone, with my friends back in my old
city. Yet again these friends havent been
the best of friends as i had said before.
I still feel like im going in circles, and
that life is slightly stupid. And i still
cry a lot, and sleeping is still hard. The
anxiety has dissapeared for the most part.
The problem is that i have no one to talk
to about this because i feel that no one
feels the way i do, but am glad to hear
some poeple do. It makes me feel like
there is hope.
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seabirds awaiting spring
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 02 Jul 2007 Posts: 13 Location: In a pit surrounded by great beauty
Posted: 07-05-07 19:00pm
sunkissed2279
wrote:
...
It seems so on and off, one day im fine,
the next day im back in the dark hole, but
i should expect it to be like that for
awhile right?
That's right. Because you have a heart,
and because you cared about the
relationship, for a while you'll be going
back and forth feeling good that there's
been a good change, and feeling bad that
there's even been a change. Realize that
you are better and getting 'more better'.
sunkissed2279
wrote:
... Seabirds, I walk everyday, beacuse it
relaxes me and makes me feel like i can do
anything! I am also writing in a journal
when i get down - a suggestion from a
doctor. ....
You need that relaxing time, personal
reflecting time, private time. When you
walk, it can be private even with other
people around.
sunkissed2279
wrote:
Seabird i did end my abusive relationship,
it was hard but it was something that
needed to be done.
...
I understand. Two of my sisters were in
abusive relationships, more than once.
They loved the fellows, but the fellows
betrayed that love through their abuse.
sunkissed2279
wrote:
I still feel like im going in circles, and
that life is slightly stupid. And i still
cry a lot, and sleeping is still hard. The
anxiety has dissapeared for the most part.
The problem is that i have no one to talk
to about this because i feel that no one
feels the way i do, but am glad to hear
some poeple do. It makes me feel like
there is hope.
You'll be crying for a while longer, too.
Love isn't a gust of wind that passes by.
It permeates our very soul. When it is
misused, our whole body feels it. It's
not a splinter in the finger, or a mote in
the eye, it's a crater in our heart.
Please be assured that as you continue to
look for inner peace, and continue to take
positive action -- walks, talks, helping
someone else, and that journal is very
important; it's great you enter something,
however brief, each day -- as you do all
that, all the icky feelings will dissolve,
bit by bit. A day will come when you will
understand why you feel the way you do
now, but wonder why it took "so long" to
"resolve" it in your heart and get beyond
it.
Hey, sometimes life looks pretty stupid to
me, too.
..Body issues must
be treated...My parents r not bothered abt
my pain..they are not takin me to a
doctor..They say that its not a great
thing or they say tht they know that it
doesnt pain for U much...as if they say
tht am pretendin that am painin..I dun say
anythin to my parents...
