my names ali. I'm 17 years old and
currently dealing with so much stress
because of how much weight i have gained
in the past few months. For a year and a
half I was anorexic and lost about 60
pounds. I bounced from 165 to 105
pounds.. every now and then I go through
stages of anorexia again and its just
something i dont want to give up on, even
when im starting to get better. The past
few months I've been eating normally and
I've been extremely happy and content
because of how far I'm coming with my
music . But i gained all the weight back
and am currently 145 pounds and 5'8. I
miss my 105 pound body and I'm wondering
what the hell is wrong with me that I want
this disorder so bad. I feel like I'm a
huge failure for gaining all this weight
back and it makes me feel so strong to go
weeks without eating.. I cant tell you
how good it feels to watch the weight
disappear..
but then again, i feel like im wasting my
time worrying about my weight when i need
to be doing my school work and focusing on
my music..
And i'm scared people will judge me ..
I just want to be thin again.. and i want
to be good at something.
Whats wrong with me? WHy do i want this
soo bad?
please help.. does anyone else feel the
same way ?
thanks
Ali
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NoMoreTears
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hii Posted: 03-17-08 14:56pm
I know how you feel. If i eat i feel
disgusted with myself. as you read in my
post, i feel like i have let down my
friend and sister (RIP)
You should be happy with urself and try
and maintain a steady weight and then you
will learn to live with it .x.
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hello Posted: 03-21-08 09:40am
I sympathize with you and know how you
feel from personal experience too. But
sometimes you just gotta try and forget
about that by focusing on other things.
I'm 5'7 and currently weight 150lb and i
too miss my skinny body sometimes. But
then i think about how people tell me i
look much better and healthier now than i
did before and it makes me feel better
about myself thanks to my family and
friends. Yes, there are times when i just
wanna stop eating again because i know the
euphoric feeling you get from losing
weight, so what helps me take my mind off
it is keeping my mind busy on other things
and wanting to be healthy =]
Well hope my advice helped at least a
little
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cassandra2
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hello Posted: 04-18-08 20:05pm
Hello,
I'm sorry that you went through anorexia,
it's not easy..I know. Right now it sounds
like you are still kind of going through
it but not as bad. I think that being 5'8
and only 105 is way too skinny. To answer
your question..are people going to judge
you? People always judge people, it's a
thing that everyone does no matter what
because we're all human. You have to learn
not to take into consideration the bad
stuff that people say about you because
they are only trying to hurt you but if
you show them that they aren't doing
anything they won't do it. If you want to
lose a few pounds or whatever in the
"healthy way" then why not talk to one of
your parents/guardian about going to see a
dietitian or a nutritionist? I think that
would be your best bet and exercising.
Those are the healthy ways to do it..by
not eating or throwing up you are just
going to put the weight back on when you
do eat..twice as much as you would..so I
really suggest eating at least something.
I have gone through the whole anorexia
thing and it was really a hard thing to
get out of and still to this day I go
through spurts where I get so depressed
and angry with myself and the way that I
look that I want to be really skinny with
an awesome body and no fat but if people
really love you like your family and your
friends they don't care how much you
weigh..it's on the inside. No matter what
you look like, if someone cares about you
they won't care about your weight. You
seem perfectly fine to me at the weight
you are at. I am about 5'6 and I'm 130
pounds and I want to lose about 10 pounds
but it's the hardest thing ever so I know
how you are feeling. Just try exercising a
little more or if you do already just
eating healthier..Oh and to answer your
question..you want it so bad because we
are all pressured by magazines and
celebrities to be stick skinny and that if
we aren't we are weird and fat..and not
normal but it's not true. They don't
really look like that..many hours and hard
work with photoshop..if we did that, we
could look that way too. Also, those
celebrities don't always look the best
either. I think a lot of times, just girls
on the street look better than them. So
don't worry about it. Live life, don't
worry about what other people think of
you.
Let me know how it goes.
Good luck and let me know how it goes!
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Re: hello Posted: 07-08-08 19:57pm
cassandra2
wrote:
I am about 5'6 and I'm 130
pounds and I want to lose about 10 pounds
but it's the hardest thing ever so I know
how you are feeling.
I'm 5'6 and I typically weight 140. I look
great like that. 120 would be too skinny.
I'm 146 now since I'm pregnant and looking
forward to see my belly getting bigger
. You don't need to
loose 10 pounds at 130.
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. You don't need to
loose 10 pounds at 130.