I love my boyfriend..I really do. We just
had a baby together.we've been together
for 3 yrs.. But I am SO unhappy. I feel
like im completely wasting my life. We
never do anything...he never ever shows an
interest in me..when i talk he doesnt
listen EVER. If I dont talk to him ..we
dont talk..HE NEVER talks to me anymore.
Its like im in a relationship by myself.
And to be compleletly honest.. I thought
when our child was born he would be such
an amzing father.. but its like I have to
push im sometimes to show an interest in
her.. he is so distant..and he is always
unhappy or just loks that way all the
time....and that brings ymood down.. Ill
be so hapy and having a fine day and when
he walks though the door its
like.something comes over me and im just
in this unhappy miserable mood and its
weird because when he is at work i cant
wait for him to come home and then he does
and its like oMG just leave.
We've had problems from the beginning..
but now im starting to see that things
will never get better.
He shows me no effection, our sex
life..there isnt one.
He is emotionally distant the only emotion
he sows is anger. He has gotten very
physical with me at times..t the point
where ive been scared for my life.
He is always miserable
He has no interest in living is life.he
just works eats and sleepsTHATS all
Im and the type that wants to live there
life and look back with good memories..
he is very boring...gets home a 6 and is
asleep by 8
Ive told him time and time again I want
out, i don love you anymore, im unhappy, i
would be aot better off with out you.
ive told him al of this..because is how i
feel. I want to leave him but the thought
of it scares me.. I dont know what I would
do...financially and emotionally.
I find i have become very mean towards
him.. I say things that i know will hurt
him..because i want them too...i dont know
why
There are so many times ive wished for him
to leave me ..but at the same time i think
if he ever did I would be heartbroken. I
have no idea anymore.
Im so confused.
